10 Monday Aug 2009
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Surprise surprise.
I have to write this down just so I can document the shock…which should subside any minute now.
The news actually made me reflect. No, I am not affected. I’m just forced to think about that single question which I have been avoiding for years now.
Maybe I don’t deserve that.
10 Monday Aug 2009
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am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
Thanks for believing. I will slowly get out of this cloud. And you will be the silver lining.
Don’t give up on me yet.
09 Sunday Aug 2009
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Dreams tell you what your heart desires.
Because I dreamt for two times this night the thing I wanted the most.
The worst part of the dream was this — I woke up.
Life is not a dream.
08 Saturday Aug 2009
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I dreamt about home.
I was dressing up on a very stormy morning…
I was going to wear the red jacket I bought before leaving for Poland…
I was super excited to go to the office that day, I don’t know why… (maybe office was also home to me)
I was ecstatic. I was happy. I was excited.
Then I woke up. 
This is home for the next few weeks.
This must be my home.
05 Wednesday Aug 2009
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This is most likely it.
I want to go home.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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Sometimes, you just have to try and remember how things were before all the complexities.
Sometimes, you just need to remind yourself why you’ve stressed about this for so long.
Sometimes, you just have to step back and see how things were.
Then at least you know that you have something to work for. And try getting close to how it was before.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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Dear you,
I don’t want you to be part of my life. I don’t want to be part of yours.
I don’t want to hear from you. Know what you’re doing. I don’t even want to see your name.
So if it’s possible, stay away from me. Stay so far away from me. I don’t ever want to talk to you again. Not for anything. Not for anything at all.
Pretend that you never knew me. And that I never existed. That’s the best way to put it.
I am tired of trying to be okay. I am tired. I am just tired.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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I don’t think this was ever meant to be fixed.
Who am I kidding anyway?
“Complicated situations are the makings of all that’s wrong”
You will have what you want… and more.
I will now make my exit.
You will never know I existed.
I will leave you. again. and this time it’s for real.
23 Saturday May 2009
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Interesting Finds, Life, Moment, Music, Random Ramblings, Songs, Videos
This has got to be my favorite Sarah Bareilles song. Listening to the lyrics breaks my heart little by little that I am turned into a useless heap of blah-ness after the song ends.
I’ve posted several entries about this song before.
Funny how I’m writing about it again one year after.
The only difference is that there’s a video now –
The video is just HEAVENLY! (lots of heavenly bodies, that is) But it’s so smartly done, I love how it’s so literal yet so creative at the same time. Nerdiness + Emoness = Happiness!
And even though there’s me turning into a pile of blah-ness, watching it makes me feel so good 
A lot has changed but seems like the song still captures it all. I am still within the gravitational field even though the radius is quite relatively huge now.
Gravity –
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I’ll still feel you here ’til the moment I’m gone.
You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
You loved me ’cause I’m fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.
CHORUS
Set me free, leave me be. I don’t want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I’m supposed to be.
But you’re on to me and all over me.
I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you’re everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you’re neither friend nor foe though I can’t seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you’re keeping me down
20 Monday Apr 2009
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… actually lead me to somewhere.
I stepped out of my apartment with no plans in mind. With just a map in hand, I walked around my area and went with my guts.
I came across this Mini Europe deli and got some bread for lunch. Then decided to walk some more along Bonifraterska. Surprisingly, I ended up in the Monument to the Warsaw Uprising at Dluga and the Karisinskich Palace. (Note to self: Read about these places some more). It’s a touristy place and I ended there by chance. I love it.
I then decided to go to the Ratusz Arsenal metro stop and took the train and the tram to get to the Galeria Mokotow (the mall near our office). Got some shopping done… 
Loving H&M and Zara, seriously
Today has taught me that sometimes you just got to let go and end up finding exactly what you needed.
