10 Monday Aug 2009
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Surprise surprise.
I have to write this down just so I can document the shock…which should subside any minute now.
The news actually made me reflect. No, I am not affected. I’m just forced to think about that single question which I have been avoiding for years now.
Maybe I don’t deserve that.
10 Monday Aug 2009
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am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
Thanks for believing. I will slowly get out of this cloud. And you will be the silver lining.
Don’t give up on me yet.
09 Sunday Aug 2009
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Dreams tell you what your heart desires.
Because I dreamt for two times this night the thing I wanted the most.
The worst part of the dream was this — I woke up.
Life is not a dream.
08 Saturday Aug 2009
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I dreamt about home.
I was dressing up on a very stormy morning…
I was going to wear the red jacket I bought before leaving for Poland…
I was super excited to go to the office that day, I don’t know why… (maybe office was also home to me)
I was ecstatic. I was happy. I was excited.
Then I woke up. 
This is home for the next few weeks.
This must be my home.
05 Wednesday Aug 2009
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This is most likely it.
I want to go home.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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Sometimes, you just have to try and remember how things were before all the complexities.
Sometimes, you just need to remind yourself why you’ve stressed about this for so long.
Sometimes, you just have to step back and see how things were.
Then at least you know that you have something to work for. And try getting close to how it was before.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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Dear you,
I don’t want you to be part of my life. I don’t want to be part of yours.
I don’t want to hear from you. Know what you’re doing. I don’t even want to see your name.
So if it’s possible, stay away from me. Stay so far away from me. I don’t ever want to talk to you again. Not for anything. Not for anything at all.
Pretend that you never knew me. And that I never existed. That’s the best way to put it.
I am tired of trying to be okay. I am tired. I am just tired.
02 Sunday Aug 2009
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I don’t think this was ever meant to be fixed.
Who am I kidding anyway?
“Complicated situations are the makings of all that’s wrong”
You will have what you want… and more.
I will now make my exit.
You will never know I existed.
I will leave you. again. and this time it’s for real.
